Daydreaming...

   When I was a kid I remember daydreaming about being a grown up. I would get to drive a car, buy baby clothes, and carry a set of keys! While my friends were dreaming of being teachers, doctors, lawyers, etc all I ever wanted to be was a mom. I pictured it being so glamourous. Just the four of us (I would have 2 kids, one boy and one girl). We would spend our Sundays on picnics by the lake somewhere all perfectly dressed and behaved, with the wind blowing the trees. It's funny thinking about that now considering there is NEVER any wind here in the summer and our last family outing was just shy of perfection with potty accidents, sunburns, and multiple bug bites! However, as a kid looking into the future it seemed so easy. Well my dream came true. Except there are three children instead of two and they are all girls and two came at once. And it hasn't been easy. In fact, it's been really hard! Sick twins at age 22, the worst colicky baby EVER at age 28 and lots of other kids that weren't actually mine, but I considered them to be so. While being a mom is exactly what I've always wanted to do, I wasn't prepared for all of the worrying that goes with it. Also all of the doctor visits, late nights, tiny sock matching, and hand sanitizer! And in my dreams my kids somehow never grew up. They stayed well mannered toddlers forever. HA!
    My dreams never made it to this part in life where I am now. My big girls are nine and a half. I don't know if that's considered "tweens" but if that is judged on attitude, then YES, they are! Maizy is four and a half. Today it just hit me that she's not a baby anymore. She picks out her own outfits, takes her own showers, colors in the lines, and swims without floaties. She's practically an adult too! I know I still have a long way to go until my kids won't really need me for most things anymore but it sure feels like it's closing in faster everyday. Maybe because it is, or maybe because I just don't know what I will do with myself when Maizy starts school in another year. I've been a stay at home mom for eight years now and it's been my dream job. I'm not sure I even know how to do anything else. People always say "They grow up fast" and when you're living life, you think those people are crazy because some of those late nights with infant Maizy seemed like they would never end, but it's so true! They do grow up fast. And then what? That's life though right? You just start feeling like you know the rules and then they change! Anyway, I'm just being dramatic today because I had to get down the size five clothes that I saved from the twins for Maizy and I swear Avery just outgrew some of them seems like yesterday. But if you are reading this and you are a new mom, take my advice. GO SLOW! Don't rush things, play, have fun, don't worry because before you know it they are nine and they aren't interested in playing anymore.