Reflections

So, I haven't written a blog in a few weeks because of the craziness that has been going on with back to school and all that is involved with that. Also, a few weeks ago I wrote a blog all the way through and got ready to hit save and it vanished into thin air! I couldn't get it back and it really made me mad so I boycotted the blog for a while and now I'm back. Anyway, this blog is going to be different. I usually write about funny things that happen to me and how my kids embarrass me daily and how my days are never dull, but this week my twin girls are turning 7 so I thought I would write a little tribute to them. Even though they act much older than 7, I know they would not really want to listen to me go on about how much I love them and how they have changed my life, so I will write it in my blog and it will be out there in the universe.


Dear McKenna and Avery,

On Sunday you will be turning 7 years old. You are no longer babies and I can't say that I am devastated by this because I love the relationship we have grown to have as you have gotten older. I will miss the cute high pitched giggle that you used to have when you were smaller and the hugs and kisses have become fewer and further between, but I do love the heart to heart talks and the look on your faces when you have made a new friend at school or the teacher has complimented you on your handwriting. When you were born, I was very afraid of you. You were both so tiny and helpless, and hooked up to machines and in incubators didn't help matters much either. I was only able to hold you for a few minutes out of the day and I worried that when you finally did get to come home I would be a nervous wreck and I wouldn't have a clue as to what I was doing. After 5 weeks in the NICU you were both finally home and surprisingly I felt very comfortable with you and the fear I had melted away. I was your mom and you had made it home and I knew from then on we could do anything together. Even bringing Avery home weighing only 3 pounds 10 ounces was ok because nothing else mattered to me except the fact that you were home. Over the next 6 years we have been through a lot together. You have gone through phases in life from being deathly shy to performing in the talent show at school and being very sick all of the time to finally getting to be normal kids. You started out so small and now you have grown to be beautiful girls with hearts of gold and smiles that light up a room. You are loved by so many people and you girls have become my best friends. We do have our moments, but they never last too long. You have been dancers, gymnasts, athletes, and girl scouts, and you have excelled at everything you have done because your hearts have been in it. You have learned to be kind and help others, and you have become the best big sisters any kid could hope for. You are always willing to try new things so I know the future has lots more experiences to be had. When you are living your life day to day you don't realize how fast things are going and how much things are changing, then one day you stop and look back and it hits you that you have come a really long way. That is where I am at right now. Seven years doesn't sound like a very long time, but it feels like an eternity because I honestly don't even remember my life before you came into it. It feels like you have always been there and we have always been together. I know that things will start to change with us soon as you make more friends and get older, we won't share things like we do now and you will become different people, but some things will never change and that is the fact that I love you more than you could ever know and I am so proud of who you are and who you are going to be. The past 7 years have been the best of my life and I wish you the best and happiest birthday ever because you both deserve it!!!! Happy Birthday Kenna and Avery, I love you, Mom